im dying inside=( im emotionally DISABLED my boyfriend is very sick. Sick like its fatal sick. He's really depressed and he wants me to leave him alone. He doesnt want me to call him nor see him. He wants to be alone for now and try to think and clear his head. But it feels like he's pushing me away from all this like his sickness and everything. I want to be there for him but if he doesnt want me to be a part of it what can i do right? This is why im so depressed. It hurts me so much.

I emailed him today when i was in class and i text him this morning then he called me told me i shouldnt do that and for me to stop texting or emailing or calling him. He got really abset with me. what he told me hurt me so bad. I guess ill just leave him alone for good. Im turninning my cell phone off and leave it at home coz when ever i have it i end up calling him and texting him. I dont know what to do. Im scared to lose him.

im going thru a lot of crisis at this time of my life. My school is really stressing me out. I want to finish already but i failed one Module and i have to repeat it again. Im behind with all my credit card bills, insurance all that shit. I thought school was going to make me feel better but it just made my life even more difficult than ever! And everytime i have a boyfriend they either end up cheating on me, breaking up with me,or using me. And now that I have a boyfriend who im very happy and satisfied with god had to make him sick. Am i not ment to be with anyone? am i suppose to live life alone? I dont know whats wrong.

All im asking for everyone is to pray for my boyfriend even though you guys dont know him that he will live thru this and that he will be fine. i love him with all my heart and i dont want to lose him thank you

Its beeen so looooong since ive been on this thing. I dont even remember when my last blog was. I think it was 2 years ago! haha....anyways....lets just say that i came back from the dead.

everything has indeed changed.....specially me. SHIT!

So i turnned 21 going on number 22 in september =)  I can drive again no more DUI's or court shit NO SIR!!!! I go to school now at ACC thanks to my boyfriend for pushing me =) oh yeah i forgot to mention i have a boyfriend now. Been together for almost 1 year. Im happy and satisfied I got myself a Puerto Rican boy =) heheh....LATIN LOVER hahaha.....well i just wanted to thank him for pushing me and changing me. I've been really good I dont drink  as much, I quit smoking, hardly party or go clubbing as much. lets just say that he helped me grow up and he will be really mad if he finds out that I posted a picture of me and him on here HAHAHAH OH WELL!!! whos gonna know right? hahah....ok well i gotta go im tired k CIAO

<b>PICTURESSS</b>

FUN TIMES

ANGLENE, DINDY and JEN

So I finally went to court yesterday. Damn, I was so Scared! Talking to the Judge makes me Nervous! OMG I felt like fainting right in the middle of everyone HAHAHA....but then everything went cool. I thought my Fine would be $1500 but it only came out to $400 but the Judge reduced it to $300 koz I guess he knew i was scared and I was telling the truth. So that was good i guess =) im sooo happppy. I only have to pay my fine and go to classes in cerritos for a week. hehe DAMn im so HAPPY though! im never going to dink and DRIVE ever again!!! i learned my lesson. THIS WAS THE FIRST AND IT WILL ALSO BE THE LAST.

Damn, I havnt written on this shit for like EVER! anywhoo....A lot has happend the past 3 weeks.

-started talking to this one guy i used to date 2 years ago

- and now we're together October 28 at 12:00am on the Dot haha...

-Got court This friday November 5 2004. Im scared So wish me luck!

Oh and Happy Birthday to Joe and Anthony!